did I turn into a sissy or just smart?
whne I was in my early 20s I was so cocky living in florida. I got into fights and did not take any crap from anyone. I played sports I had girls I was full of spunk.
now I'm a little older now and moved ot cali I like to avoid confrontation and I'm paranoid to get in trouble becasue its backwards where I live and if you fight you go to jail and people sue. or people love to provoke each other or talk **** and the person who gets violent first is the bad guy not the perosn who provoked or bullied. I stand up to bullies but out here its backwards. people pick on each other and push buttons and the one who snaps gets the penalty.
especially with my neighbors people know I have so much control . once I'm pushed enouhg I snap or lose my cool.
I uised to be a full contact fighter championship karate man and wrestler but no one cares or feels that vibe. out here. in Fl people respected me. in los angeles no one does or cares.
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Welcome to the real world. The school of hard knocks is now known as university. You are finally a man my son.
I don't think it's a matter of being a sissy or smart, you have learned fear. True fear. You have gone back to your base instincts of survival and listened to them.
You keep calling your neighbours "backwards". They, too, have gone back to the caveman era and fight or flight. They don't care if you have medals or are a champion - heck, that's fair play and disciplined, something you have over them. But it's not going to help.
Is there any reason you can't leave there? Are you going to school, visiting family, living with family? Do you not have the money to move back to Florida? It sounds like me that you should get out while you can. And there's nothing sissy about that. In fact, it's smart.
Good luck to you, sweetheart.
you've been asking this for a long time.
the more you continue to focus on them the more it will hold you back and they are ******* with you big time and lying.
they will never change now they think you are going to be cool with them while they disrespect you.
ignore them. try you best not to lose your cool man or you will end up in jail.
do what I did work focus on yourself ignore thme as much as you can and think of moving out because you also complaina bout the neighborhodd and street itself. you can't change the world sadly and you are not happy there so move dude.
they will bring you down.
you can;t change people with your fist. and a lot of times you cant bother with everyone. we are NOT ALL THE SAME. .
There were bits missing.
You are now complete!
Congratulations.