Do I deserve this treatment?
I'm bullied non-stop. A few minutes ago I walk out my front door, and someone screams "SLUT" and runs off. It happens all the time.. And I mean I don't even dress kinky or sluty, I wear sweats and t-shirts. I hate coming out of my house I hate people, I can't get away from this everywhere I go. Am I that terrible enough, for people to announce it. Do I deserve some punishment? Wasn't being raped multiple times, beaten, treatend. Enough? I have over 800 scars on my body because of self-harm from my low self-esteem. Why me? I mean I already don't have friends, I dropped out of school, I've sacrificed my life just to get away from these people. I want nothing to do with anyone anymore..
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Of course you don't deserve this treatment. No matter what anyone does, they never deserve to be torn down and have their self esteem taken. But even though people may try to do things like that, in the end you are the one who controls your self esteem. What people say doesn't have to affect you unless you let it. Yes, it can be hard but try to ignore it. You say you were raped, I am so, so, so, so, sorry about that. I can't even imagine that happening and you were in no way responsible. You are not a slut or any of the other things people say you are because you did not consent to have sex, you were forced. Most girls who have this happen to them, have low self esteem their whole life and rarely get into relationships, they lose trust in other people and lose belief in themselves, but you don't have to be part of the group of "most" girls. Take what you learned from this and be stronger. You're alive and I live by the saying, "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger." At least I try to. I've cut before and have scars on my wrist, I don't regret it though because regretting is stupid. At one point everything you did was exactly what you wanted. Maybe later it's not what you want but at one point it was so don't stress about the past and don't think about what people say. You may have heard this before that people that make fun of others have low self esteem and it's true. Think about it. Why would someone who feels good about themselves make fun of someone else? When someone is unsure of their self, they want to feel in control in some way. So they pick on someone else. When they make fun of someone and they see that it affects that person they feel powerful and like they are in control of at least one thing in their life. So don't let it affect you. If someone says something mean to your face, however hard it may be and however much you want to cry right there, just stare at them with no emotion. Look them directly in the eye for a few seconds (don't blink) and then continue on your way and keep your head high. If they say anything more, COMPLETELY ignore them. They mean nothing to you. Go back to school or transfer to another school. Continue your education and do something that you really love. You could even be a psychiatrist or something. Someone who helps girls get over being raped, because it is very, very, very common. Maybe even some of the people who make fun of you have been raped. But don't let anyone stand in your way. Every aspect in your life has taught you a lesson, you can either learn and move ahead or refuse to learn and wallow in self pity. It's all up to you.