i feel like i I do not respect myself?
Hello I am a 17-year-old girl and for soon 5 months I go out with a boy ..
Between us it is really beautiful, we like each other enormously .. but there is something who tarnishes a little this idyllic love it is our very different report has the sexuality ..It is my first boyfriend and him in already had girlfriends before, or even sex friends, I did not even have to kiss a boy before him, for me I grant a very big importance for all this, I do not want to give myself to whoever.. But here is one day for my birthday it made me the surprise take me to sleep on the beach and the that has a little To slip he( has me asked if I could touch by top his pair of underpants because for him it is important I am say that there was no evil enough, I wanted to prove him my love and I found the romantic frameexcept that then he slid my hand under his boxer shorts, I was not good really of the whole, I have hi say that I wanted that he(Stop but he did not stopthen I eventually shook hi, and he is put to sleep and I I have cried all night long I felt so much made dirty, so shameful, I felt as a b*tch, the next day I explained to him and it is put has cried has which point he was sorry and that it had not realized in the excitement of all this I imagined to be able to nothing redo of sexual with him but a day it has asked for more me and I am say that I did not want stayed on a traumatizing image of all this and the that I get better felt less guilty ..
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this the next ;:recently it has asked me if he could To Touc by top my panties but he has put the fingers below then etc. one little not to say that I was not okay Thus but for me it was a lot of emotion I have cried .. etc. and one in begun again another day and I have found that really good and beautiful because it was cute and romantic, it is the person who loves me enormously who/what is always for me and because I love him with all my heart But I have the impression that he(it) little not refrain from being excited all the time and from wanting always that that goes farther but it is true than sometimes I I really want it because there is an attraction between us enormous and so much love, but me few not to prevent me from feeling sick when we make this kind of thing, I have the impression to have lost something, to be me makes dirty
It seems that he is more interested in sex and sexual acts than he is with you. I'd suggest you find someone who feels the same way as you do about sex, though that may be difficult to get.
Your man only wants you for sex. You need to drop him babe.