do i have a mental problem?

well im 17 and a girl. i had anxiety when i was 12 and this lasted for the two following years and i overcame it when i was 14.

well my dad used to hit me hard and rebuke me when i was young from age 2 -11but (i never complained). i remember several times he broke my glasses accedentally when he was nervous and hitting me and it took days to get a new one i had a really short sight so i was kind of suffering in that period waiting for my glasses but i didnt feel like hating my dad at all i alaways thought he was right even though i never understood why i was being hit. i also remember once when i was 6 yeah i remember that clear that he hit me by the slipers on the face leaving an obivious blue bruise on my eyes...mom told me to never let anyone know its father who did it and to invent a lie if someone asked what i had on my eye and when i left to school my stupid mates lol called the teacher to hit me cause i was putting make up and whe she asked me if what they claim was right but i ddont rememver then what happened. ( my dad defenitly wanted my good but expressed it in a wrong way). i also was beaten hard at school and once a teacher hit till blood came out of my hands for the homeworkk i also remember many many times he used to study for me as a young child he would hit me and my brother as well but hed be worse with me...cause i was a failure lol he would let my brother go to play and lock me in the room yelling and pressing me to answer his questions or read a paragraph...that i never could for some reason my one year younger brother was better than me but when we grew a little older that massive change happened to me. i never could read english when i was 6-10 also was such a failure in maths. but when my dad stopped studying to me as he was bussy he came back telling me he was amazed by my grades my grades massively improved in a quite short time with the least effort. im an arabian girl but i can speak english to an extent but the difference is obvious between me and my class mates also i became really good at maths thank god.

is this called a trauma? i guess i overcame this.

well heres my problem: my mood aint stable and i have a very low self esteem even though sometimes i feel good about myself ...i get really depressed easily and really high in minutes....but i never had hypomania symptoms except only feeling really good. so whts that and does it my past experience play a role in all what im going through?

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