i accidentally made a boy my father figure. serious advice in my daddy issues?
The seperation anxiety i have with my ex boyfriend is abnormal, ive done alot of crazy things not to lose him. Ive known him for four years almost. My real dad left and growing up i had to adapt to calling alot of different men dad and it just messed me up. He doesnt know the whole story, but when we were together, he used to let me call him daddy and hed call me princess or his special little girl. I love telling him about school and i love when hes condescending and tells me what to do, i know that ive taken him to be my father, alot is going on lately, and im paranoid im going to lose him and i'll completely malfunction or seriously hurt myself. How do i let go of him as my father figure??? Im 15 and hes 17. Please dont tell me to get professional help, i cant let my mother know her incompetence in relationships when i was a child messed me up.
Growing up with no father is such a common thing and so many other people grow up fine, its embarrassing that i took it differently
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Maybe if you can not go see a therapist you could read some self-help books. There are lots of them. Maybe even your library has some. The fact that you recognize your problem is the biggest step toward recovery. No one has to know what book you are reading. Read it in private. Keep it private too. People are not understanding.