Do I have a mental disorder?
Okay, so here within the last couple weeks, I've been noticing changes in myself. First, I rock back and forth. I am really bad in social situations. I can't really talk to anyone and if I have to, I'm really scared I will say the wrong thing or bore them. I laugh at really inappropriate times. I'm super self-conscious. I think I see shadows and hear strange noises in my house but if I say anything, everyone else says they don't know what I'm talking about. I have trouble expressing myself. I have some really messed up thoughts when I look at people, like torturing them to the point of death. I am really smart, but within the last month, I have noticed my intelligence may be declining. I have this thing where if I get nervous (which is quite often), I rub my hands together in an awkward sort of fashion. I blank out a lot and just stare off into space. I feel like everybody is always looking at me. I am really paranoid and scared somebody will break in my house and torture me. I have a lot of conspiracy theories. I have trouble going to sleep or sleeping too much, it's always one or the other. My dad has epilepsy and anxiety problems. Both my parents did different drugs before I was born, but not while I was being carried. I know this is a long post, but I would really like an answer. Thanks.
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Ok it kinda sounds like u have an extreme case of anxiety. I think u may need a therapist or doctor or talk to somebody. It annoys me when people tell me that, but in your case I think u seriously do need help. As for your parents doing drugs, I think that could be part of the problem. The drugs could have still been in your mothers system when she was carrying u. I hope I helped a little! ^.^
Are you possessed? No just kidding. Sounds like you need a hug lol. I'm curious as to what brought about this change. The sudden intense insecurity, nervousness, anxiety. I would not prolong letting this symptoms continue because you're having thoughts about torturing others. What happens if you act on these thoughts ? You should see your school counselor immediately.
I wouldn't consider that to be normal. I would go to the doctor and explain exactly what you said here.
I can't exactly pin point the exact problem but I do recognize the symptoms from some type of disorder.
Don't be embarrassed.
Beginning in early adulthood or during the adolescent period, the onset is not dramatic and sudden, rather the establishment of the condition of schizophrenia is a gradual process, affecting the individual and settling in on the person over a period of months and years until it matures usually in the adult individual. The afflicted individual begins to notice some peculiar features of changed mental and emotional states and very characteristic patterns appear in the process of concentration and attention, thought processes undergo changes and perception is shifted to a large degree that even others being to notice problems with the individual. The person withdraws more into himself or herself and communicating coherently with people and society becomes more and more difficult for the individual. . Thus people who make sudden and bizarre comments at inappropriate situations and places and who display improper and surprising behavior at odd times can be classed generally as suffering from or afflicted with borderline schizophrenia. In this type of mild form or moderate type of schizophrenic behavior, the person's speech pattern strays and is hard to follow, the person is also confused and finds it hard to concentrate on things and activities that he or she is normally involved with as apart of his or her life. Dealing with such people becomes problematic because the comments and speeches they give or make will make no sense and have very little bearing on the circumstances or situation at hand, besides also being completely illogical in scope and form. Physical symptoms in such patients are manifested in the person rocking back and forth in a slow manner and evidently finding peace in this activity. The physical and facial expression of such individuals tends to be confused. Paranoia in affected patients can include thoughts that they are being stalked or followed by someone or something; patients are also given to hearing voices and evil beings plotting against them or trying to kill them
Happening to me. Its just you lose your mind because your brain lost some important cells. They will come back. I'm not kdding. I know what it feels like. Trust me your just fine.