how do i escape or express my feelings?
i know your just gonna say read or write or draw, and i want to, but since my anxiety and depression got way more severe, im not creative anymore WHAT SO EVER. if i wanna draw something, even doodle in class, i have no idea what to draw. i hate it. its like allll the creativity in my life i had before just dissapeared over night. i feel and probably am the most boring person ever. im really mature for my age also, im 14. so that doesnt help. i feel like if i acted my age, id be more creative. i think it started in january when i thought my ex boyfriend killed himself because i was leaving him. i had the most horrible anxiety attack ever. then after taht, when everything turned out to be fine, i wouldstart thinking of things beyound my..understanding i guess you could call it that. i started worrying about where i go after i die, if im just in this blank space where its all black and you dont feel feelings, yet you have your memorys from life, or if im gonna die just any second like right now. or whats gonna happen in 2012 like i know the world isnt gonna end im not stupid enough to believe that but there are books on whats gonna happen, and that scares me. just everything around me sfcared the living **** out of me. i hate being like this. i jsut feel like i could be doing more with myself which i could! seriously, all i do when i get home is set my bag down, walk in the kitchen get something to eat and eat on the couch and watch tv. then im always SOO tired after school reagardless if i get enough sleep im still tired. so i sleep. i hate how im living. so basiclly, i want ideas about what to write or draw and maybe some help for what im feeling, because im tired of having aboring life.its been this way for months and im scared if im gonna be like this for the rest of my life. dont tell me to go to a counsiller, i do. i tell her all of this and she isnt doing **** about it. help please.
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To start off with there is only two possibilities that happen when you die. You would never be in darkness with no feeling. You would not be aware of dark, light, or anything like before you were born. The other possibility is that we go one to another dimension as our souls are immortal. Why worry when either one is acceptable. In one you are unaware and very safe. In the second one you are in a fabulous heaven where there is no death.
You cannot ruin today worrying about the future. Science may extend life for you to 150 to 200 years or more. If so they may find immortality. You are not going to die in the foreseeable future. There is no use in worrying about something so far in the future if at all. Let your mind relax and creativity will return. Good Luck!
Well how i escape my world is to put on a song and put it on full blast .. i am also 14... i had the same problemes as you .... And im not sure whatkimd of religion you are but im Greek Orthadox/Athiest .. but if you do believe in God it says in the bible " No man shall know what day, minute, or hour the world will end" So all this bull$#1% about the world ending is probably faker than the BiZ natch saying it ... And as for what to write ... How about you write a fan fiction love story about you and your favorite celebrity? Alot of people do that... Nd&& what ypu could draw? Depending on how you feel im guessing depressed?? How about like a dark rose ...Or a heart with yur most loved family member? Personally i suck at drawing but i mainly draw eyes ... i detail them to how i feel ... nothing but a set of eyes ... i also write love poems ... write a poem about love ...bor death ... Hell, write it about a cloud ... and after you die? Uhm .. my step mom studies witch craft ... So, im guessing youll either get reincarnated or ... honestly thats a mystery that will probably never be solved ... Nd&& i think you should get your mind off of things ... talk to a boy you like .. go out with a guyb.... hang with friends ... But, maybe your anxiouse for a reason ... Im not sure ... im just trying to help ... ummm .....all you would have to write os " Dear whoever, im always anxoius, im always scared. i dont know what to do" and then words will sing to you as if its own somg ...... Hope i helped (:
You're just going into a stupor. It comes from shock. It's good that you go to a counselor. What it's really for is so that you can get some stuff off your chest. If you want, email me and we could chat: [email protected] . Do you do your homework everyday? If not, that could be something to fill up some empty space. Also, writing really helps. What to write about? You could write about your life, your feelings, how you think you could change things, etc. You could draw, too. What to draw? Well, I love drawing wolves and anime characters. Even if you get angry and frustrated, that's pretty good if you don't feel anything anymore. Really though, email me so that we can go into more detail. I really hope I helped, and best of luck getting through your issues.
~Skyye~
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