Lack of empathy? Narcissism? A good Narcissist?
I dont have empathy for others feelings. I pretend to have feelings for others so I dont seem selfish (I like to think of myself as a good person, and others believe Im sincere)...in all my actions I am "good" and the best person I have ever known, but I dont feel anything for others... have tried giving to others, listening (which is boring)...I just cant seem to get it. I know I am smarter than almost anyone I have ever met so I wonder if my logic is getting in the way with normal human emotions? Also, I have been wondering if I might have narcissistic personality disorder (not self-love)...I wondered, can there be a good narcissist? I only "care" about myself, I feel confident about everything I do, Im competitive. I do manipulate sometimes, but its only to bad ppl, or ppl that I know will be better off after I get them to do what I want. I dont want to change, I just want to understand myself. Maybe lack of empathy is an advantage? I am different than everyone else, I can tell...
Update:also...dont say "get over yourself" Im not on here to get abused...I just want some answers... 
oh btw...I am extreemly smart...my only weakness...SPELLING! except for that I blow awak the competition at everything...for some reason it gets me everytime, even if I use spell check...I am more of a social genious... I get ppl, and can judge their real motives....
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It does sound like you have a narcissistic personality disorder. I have known good two good narcissists. Both people would do whatever they thought best for another. The only problem is that sometimes what you think is best for someone else isn't. You can pretend to understand how someone feels, but until you know, it isn't wise to manipulate outcomes. I'll give you an example. My favorite self-proclaimed narcissist, lets call him Tom, decided his best friend wasn't ready to get married. He looked at the situation coldly and considered finances, family backgrounds, education, etc. and decided to influence his friend not to get married. He was successful. Now his friend is still alone and wishes he had never listened to Tom. He keeps saying he has never felt that way before or since and deeply regrets listening to Tom who could not empathize with him. I know you believe you are smarter than most, and you probably are, but smarts isn't always the answer.
If you want to learn more about yourself and your inner workings, go see a psychiatrist. You'll probabaly believe you are smarter than him or her, but at least this person can educate you about you.
Based from your story, i can tell you are apathetic. Not all were born with gift of being sensitive to the needs or feelings of other people. There were manifestation of grandeur delusion if I will based it here,"i am good and the best person I have ever known...."There is no empathy, only exaggerated self emotion, self importance and self concern which depicts a narcissist.
Narcissists are by definition liars. They appear to be something they are not. They seem educated, confidant, charming, and social. They are master manipulators and total control freaks. They have no emotions and are void of empathy. They feel for no one but themselves. They are a bottomless pit that is never satisfied. They are incapable of giving and receieving true love. They think they are better than everyone else, always right and never wrong, and their way is always the best way to do anything. They love attention. They think only of themselves, but make you think they are thinking of your best intrests. They dont mind buying you lavish gifts as long as they do not have to give of themselves, especially their time. Their time is precious to them and you do not deserve any of their time unless it is to their benefit. You exist solely to please them. To them, you are less than human, you are not worthy of their mere presence.
there is no good narcissist by definition.You can't say it is an advantage that you lack empathy. Everything should come from within. How can others know you if you dont know yourself...it goes without saying how important for us to feel the need to be loved,wanted,longed for by someone.
the two i'm incorrect or you will desire to look up the observe narcissist. Narcissism has no longer something to do with being a vegetarian pussy or loving animals like a furry. yiff yiff. If I have been you i might talk on your psychologist approximately it over some pork jerky. it would make you experience smarter:3 Edit: Narcissism is infatuation with oneself reminiscent of having an exceedingly massive ego/supremacy complicated. you won't have the ability to save each and every animal fairly ones that have been born and raised regionally for eating purposes. there is lack of know-how on the two factors of this argument in case you may take time to do thorough learn. in case you do no longer consume yer meat ya won't have the ability to have any pudding!
just join politics! you'll make the perfect politician or lawyer! and then you'll only have to listen to people in order to learn how to manipulate them or get ahead!
i find people interesting for the same reason i find movies interesting - i like to learn what happens in the world and what people believe in it. i'm fascinated now by the horror of muslim women (that they like it!). i used to be smart, too, but having a real job took care of that.
i think you need to re-define "smart". it is not what you ARE but what you DO. if you go to Yale, you are smart. if you invent something, you are smart. if you just say things -- well, then you just say things. you are only smart if you get people to listen to you, if they don't listen, you are not smart.
quit obsessing over yourself, you narcisssist, and go be a lawyer or politican or stock trader! your "problems" will be strengths in those arenas!
Sounds a bit like antisocial behavior. But you may not be able to relate with your peers. You may find when you surround yourself with people of like mind, you may be able to relate and therefore empathize with them.
we are two peas in a black pod of self reliance
You can see my real motives? So what am I thinking right now?